do I have to?

Sometimes, having a special someone is great.. someone who supports you, cares for you.. someone to lean on, to love..

I'm just really upset right now.. sad, mad, I really feel like crying right now..


maybe I'm just used to "if you love to, i do" "if you don't want it, I don't"
I apologize for being used to this. that's why I feel so bad right now..



anyways, the fuck I care right?


more of "ME" time :)

2nd year college, FUCK YEA!

Today is officially the end of my 2nd year in college! It was a very fruitful school year for me :) I've encountered great things and great people.

1st semeseter:
Got promoted from block C to an A.. I was very nervous at that time, I left my friends at block C, new faces, new challenges awaits for me.. I thought they were gonna eat me alive, but I was wrong, they are nice people. At first they kinda don't care who I was, or what was I doing, when I tried to talk to them, somehow, they just try to avoid me, or ignore me (yes that was heart breaking) good thing I know one(yes one) of them, she was my classmate during elementary days. so there. I was alone, for a couple of weeks, cause I lack social skills.

But as days passed by, we got to know each other, share same interests.. And next thing we know, we are hanging out, drinking booze total bonding.

I've met the coolest teachers eveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!
my teacher in baking and in bar and beverage, the coolest!
easy to talk to, calm, great listeners, and most of all FAIR!!

and then, I also found my other half.. Who I still love today and everyday..

Finals comin up!

I have been inactive the past of months (I think) well, that's because I've been busy with other things and I've been very lazy doing this kind of things. Anyways, Hell week is fast approaching, 3 days to be exact :) we are fully loaded, and I don't know if I can do it. It's kind of frustrating to be honest, the feeling that you want to cuss the whole world, the kind of feeling you want to put your teachers into pieces. But it's normal to every student to be frustrated. Just Don't let it get to your head. Fight it and be strong. It'll soon be over.


HELL WEEK, GET A TASTE OF HEAVEN :D